CHASM - 8corpses

[02:10.0]Metamorphosis
[02:10.0]Through the catharsis
[02:10.0]I’m a work in progress
[02:10.0]Reaping the benefits
[02:10.0]I’m an Amalgamation
[02:10.0]of trauma and psychosis
[02:10.0]Mitigated it
[02:10.0]with whatever substance
[02:10.0]The best revenge in life is success
[02:10.0]words from my mother
[02:10.0]We often resign to the familiar
[02:10.0]Used to Play with razors
[02:10.0]Like a peaky blinder
[02:10.0]Gettin flashbacks
[02:10.0]Like Thomas Shelby
[02:10.0]Hittin that bottle
[02:10.0]That subsequently created even more problems
[02:10.0]For me
[02:10.0]People are so janky
[02:10.0]Not a single ounce of trust dwelling in me
[02:10.0]No need to ingratiate me
[02:10.0]So many dichotomies
[02:10.0]I often use metaphors and similes
[02:10.0]In my head
[02:10.0]Lies so much uncertainty
[02:10.0]But I do know I love Ergotamine
[02:10.0] I’m realizing now
[02:10.0]Obtaining self love is the ultimate currency
[02:10.0]Cause
[02:10.0]when your alone
[02:10.0]You can be overwhelmed with insecurity
[02:10.0]and of course
[02:10.0] melancholy
[02:10.0]People love to throw rocks
[02:10.0]Then hide their hands
[02:10.0]Banzai like a WW2 solider from Japan
[02:10.0]Just know
[02:10.0]People love to backstab
[02:10.0]Like what America
[02:10.0]Did to Black kettle of the
[02:10.0]Cheyenne
[02:10.0]They tell you to pull yourself up by your boot straps
[02:10.0]My Brain is hella overcast
[02:10.0]Looking for the source
[02:10.0]Of this chaos like a Shot spotter
[02:10.0]Gotta change my thought pattern
[02:10.0]Telling me I don’t matter
[02:10.0]Welcome to rock bottom
[02:10.0]Drug
[02:10.0]Problem
[02:10.0]Walking chasm
[02:10.0]For so long I’ve tried making
[02:10.0]problems a solution
[02:10.0]And solutions a problem
[02:10.0]I used to take drugs
[02:10.0]Until the drugs took me
[02:10.0]My head goes in circles
[02:10.0]like a Ferris wheel
[02:10.0]rollercoaster taming off the seraquel
[02:10.0]Frequent flyer miles with
[02:10.0]wanting
[02:10.0] life to be over
[02:10.0]Struggling with myself
[02:10.0]over going sober
[02:10.0]People say mental health matters
[02:10.0]But then turn around
[02:10.0]and not care if you’re somber
[02:10.0]I do this for the people I had in my life
[02:10.0]Who couldn’t show up for themselves
[02:10.0]When they were suicidal they couldn’t
[02:10.0]Think of nothing else
[02:10.0]You can keep your thoughts and prayers
[02:10.0]to yourself
[02:10.0]With these cards that I’m dealt
[02:10.0]None of that helps
[02:10.0]Never had the chance to completely grow up
[02:10.0]Most Conversations with people
[02:10.0]End up faker
[02:10.0]then a publicity stunt