I Love You Boy - Russ

[00:00.0]I Love You Boy (Explicit) - Russ
[00:00.2]Composed by：Philip Chang/Blest Jones/Aaron Cheung/Russell Vitale
[00:00.53]Produced by：Aaron Paris/UNKWN/Blessed Jones/Russ
[00:00.79]I love you more
[00:04.28]Than before
[00:07.79]Yeah yeah yeah yeah
[00:11.88]I love you more
[00:15.38]Than before
[00:18.85]Yeah yeah yeah yeah
[00:20.27]Yeah
[00:21.49]You grew up in a environment that was hostile and got wild
[00:24.87]Arguments you heard as a small child had an effect
[00:27.87]That left you with a lot to undo
[00:29.81]Your first words was screamin' at your mom sayin' "**** you"
[00:32.44]Imagine the visual diaper on already dealin' with the residual
[00:36.63]Effects of an explosive father figure was difficult
[00:39.38]Mama was miserable his love felt conditional
[00:41.8]You better be perfect otherwise he'll be hypocritical
[00:44.6]Belittle you 'til you nothin' yeah hurts to listen
[00:46.98]Neither parent knew how to regulate the nervous system
[00:49.92]Dad was reactive mom was fatalistic
[00:52.69]No one to protect you grandfather paid a visit
[00:55.22]To take you and your siblings and your mama far away
[00:57.66]Twenty-nine years later she regrets that she stayed
[01:00.44]You were doomed from the start you were hurt and ostracized
[01:03.29]There's a wound in your heart survival mode you traumatized
[01:06.55]For real
[01:07.11]I love you more
[01:09.62]I love you
[01:10.63]Than before
[01:14.07]Yeah yeah yeah yeah
[01:18.12]I love you more
[01:21.64]Than before
[01:25.12]Yeah yeah yeah yeah
[01:27.25]Yeah
[01:27.81]The monster you created to protect the kid in you is hard to manage
[01:31.06]Supreme confidence deep cripplin' insecurity
[01:33.86]The damage that's been done is explicit and abusive and a critic
[01:36.979996]Nothin' that you ever do is really good enough is it
[01:39.57]You didn't get validation from your dad
[01:41.979996]So you replaced him with the industry and started to rap
[01:44.46]You wanted praise and acknowledgement and picked a profession that
[01:47.44]People who look like you don't get
[01:48.91]Now the range of accomplishments
[01:50.14]Bein' ignored authoritative outside force
[01:52.89]That you yet again apparently aren't good enough for
[01:55.66]All fueled you your need to be liked and feel wanted consumed you
[01:59.270004]That's why you call a chick every night to come do you
[02:02.15]Only to be left feelin' less than before
[02:04.91]Didn't have the tools to manage stress you at war
[02:07.32]With yourself you need love
[02:09.17]Drinkin' to forget that bein' you is not enough
[02:11.75]Overcompensatin' in interviews tryna prove that you right
[02:14.91]Maybe then you'll be liked
[02:16.35]Tryna prove you're worthy of approval you weren't shown in your home
[02:19.51]I'm sorry that I ever left you all alone
[02:24.20999]I love you more
[02:26.2]I'm sorry
[02:27.87]Than before
[02:31.29001]Yeah yeah yeah yeah
[02:35.27]I love you more
[02:38.84]Than before
[02:42.28]Yeah yeah yeah yeah
[02:43.97]Yeah
[02:45.14]You deserve a pat on the back and a round of applause
[02:47.72]The sound of this song makes you think I'm not proud
[02:49.98]But you wrong
[02:50.61]Look how far you took it international bookings
[02:52.8]You gave your family a cushion
[02:54.15]And through the hate you kept pushin'
[02:55.55]Knew you had people lookin' up to you
[02:57.27]You held your composure
[02:58.3]As hell moved close to you
[02:59.42]You a soldier it's a shock that you were ever sober
[03:01.71]I never told you how I feel I apologize
[03:04.22]Lot of guys would've folded I guess I'm not surprised
[03:06.6]You prophesized this from the get go
[03:08.51]Anything you wanted went and got it 'cause you said so
[03:11.33]Packs of women fightin' over you like Shevchenko
[03:14.0]Seven figure checks private jets your best friends know
[03:16.56]Your character you proved that by sharin' your
[03:18.87]Successes and blessings but when you hurt we hurt
[03:21.52]Breakdowns mean that it's time for a rebirth so
[03:24.74]You carried me as far as you could go
[03:26.59]Now it's time to say goodbye
[03:27.95]Before I leave you should know though yeah
[03:30.54001]I love you more
[03:34.07]Than before
[03:37.62]Yeah yeah yeah yeah
[03:41.57]I love you more
[03:45.13]Than before
[03:48.6]Yeah yeah yeah yeah